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Thanksgiving, No Thanks? November 20, 2007

Posted by Conrad Hubbard in : The Chip , trackback

Even though it is just days away, and I get 4 days in a row off work, I am really not looking forward to this Thanksgiving. Since my estranged wife took off in June, I have watched every holiday (and my birthday) go by uncelebrated and alone. It has been hard enough, so far, but Thanksgiving and Christmas have always felt like particularly family oriented holidays to me. Sadly, it feels like my family has been ripped away. I don’t feel particularly thankful.

Don’t get me wrong, I know that during the (much longer) Christmas break I will visit my blood family – my brother, sister, mother, father – but I no longer have a family of my own to bring to the table. I had a beautiful wife and her two daughters (even though they are not my kids) with whom to share these family holidays for the past 6 years, and it is a hard adjustment to be without them.

I know that some people will read this, and be turned off by my nostalgia for an idyllic past which is seemingly lost to faithlessness. Hopefully, someone will also see that this is the real me – loyal, compassionate, caring, genuinely attached to my loved ones – and know that I will be true to the future as I have been true to the past. I guess that if there is anything to be thankful for this year, it is that I even have a future and that there is a huge world out there waiting for me to find it. I hope that someone will be thankful that I am here.

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1. JKB - November 24, 2007

Hey there, just a note here from a total stranger to wish you happiness and luck this holiday season. You and I have never met, and I’m not an avid reader of your blog. Truthfully, I just stumbled upon it while looking for Exalted resources on the web, and I thought it might be an interesting read. Well, it is, indeed, interesting, but not in the ways I had hoped.

I am most certainly not put off by your nostalgia for an idyllic past. Indeed, I find that to be the most natural and human response one could have given the situation. Rather than be “turned off”, I think I feel rather sympathetic. I’m fortunate to have avoided the same unpleasantness in my own life, but I’ve seen my brother go through a similar situation some years back. He felt the same as you seem to from your blog. Of course, being my brother, I tried my best to help him out, but what could I do? I just tried to tell him to hang in there, and that he needn’t worry too much; many people cared about him; he did make a difference. And what could he do? Just let time run its course and see how things played out. Well, that was many years ago. This last fall, he just remarried, and seems quite happy.

So, what’s the point of all this? Just to let you know that things improve if let them, and to tell you that through your work you have made a difference in people’s lives. I mean, naturally, Exalted hasn’t made my life complete or anything. But it has brought me a great deal of enjoyment and fueled my imagination. Those types of positive emotions have led into other positive things in my life. So I’d like to say thank you to you.

Have a happy holiday season.

I’m thankful that you’re here.

JKB