You make me feel uneasy. This isn’t the beginning of it. I have been feeling this way for a while, but it grows a little bit here and there. It gets a little bit worse every time you do it. I am sure the feeling did not begin with the first time I noticed it. You were already making me feel that way before I recognized that it was you. I cannot tell you exactly when it started.
So let’s start with this: You make me feel uneasy because I personally know one or more individuals who you seem to think should be put in a cage or deported.
Maybe you claim you don’t support such positions, but you support Trump or your Republican congressman, even though you know they are in favor of putting my friend in a cage or deporting my friend. Maybe you directly support children being in cages or refugees being deported. Or you project the idea that some people who are here in America without being a citizen are automatically suspect. I wonder if you would report them if you knew. Imagine I am talking to you about something work-related or a banal detail of life, and imagine that I am thinking that you would report my friend to be put in a camp. Because I do actually think that sometimes when I am talking to you.
You make me feel uneasy because you seem to think that sexual assault is okay.
Maybe you think destroying the women who accused Brett Kavanaugh and Clarence Thomas is okay. Maybe you are a supporter of those two Republican judges. Or maybe you just don’t care what they did. You are aware of the Access Hollywood tape, where president Trump bragged about sexual assault, but you don’t care, even though it is on tape. You support your power figures regardless of their actions. Or you think boys will be boys. I wonder if you would support these men if they had sexually assaulted my loved ones. Imagine I am talking to you about whatever, and imagine I am thinking that you might dismiss an assault on my mother or my sister or my girlfriend in the name of your leaders.
You make me feel uneasy because you seem to think murdering people in the street is okay, as long as they are liberals.
You defended the right winger who ran over Heather Heyer in Charlottesville while she was peacefully protesting. You suggested that he ran over innocent people on foot because he felt threatened in his car. Trump publicly shielded as “fine people” and you supported Trump. Or you maybe you are just supporting the Republican congressmen who are defending Trump. Or maybe you supported the ICE agent who intentionally ran over a Jewish protester. Maybe you have declared that these are all “paid protesters” rather than real people. Maybe you think they have no right to gather in public places. Imagine I am talking to you about something, and imagine I am wondering if you would run me over if I happened to end up in front of you while protesting in a crowd.
You make me feel uneasy, because you seem to be okay with so many terrible things. You make me feel uneasy, because you smile at me like it is nothing.
I haven’t decided what to do about it yet. But I do know that my “friends” shouldn’t make me feel uneasy like this.